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anew; knowing all was wrong with me,
and that there must be a change, but how
to effect it I knew not, I found that all
my resolutions came to nothing, and <emotion>I only
grew worse and worse</emotion>. At length I con=
=cluded that if the Lord pleased, he could
change my heart, but that I could do noth=
=ing; it was therefore best to make my self
as easy as possible, which I endeavour'd to do.
But thanks be to my Savior, he did not
leave Himself without a witness in my soul,
tho' I alas, too often rejected his calls and 
disobeyed his voice. Thus I went on, till a=
=bout the middle of my 16th. year. My 
Choir Laboress one day called me aside, and
in a very affectionate manner express'd her
concern on my account, saying <emotion>she feared I
was going on unconcerned about the salva=
=tion of my soul</emotion>, and trifling with my call
of grace. I was exceedingly struck: acknow=
=ledged her remarks were too just, but said,
there was times, when <emotion>I was very unea=
=sy</emotion>. This led to much serious conversati=
=on on her part, and in the sequel she told
me, that two of my companions would
have the favor to be received into the Con=
=gregation on the following day, of which she
thought proper to apprize me. I thanked