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who came to see him, from the Power of the Blood
of Christ with a becoming Tenderness.
His happy & <sic>Joyfull</sic>  <corr>Joyful</corr> Departure to our Saviour renewd
& fastened the Impression, I had, of the blessed Con_
versation w.<hi rend="superscript">th</hi> him.
Now my former Inclination to the had fixd <add>in me</add> such a
Fear of myself, that I no where trusted to live, &
imagined Danger every where; but the Friend of
my Soul soon recollected to me, that I lookd more
on my blessed Husband as on the <sic>Conexion</sic>  <corr>Connection</corr> w.<hi rend="superscript">th</hi> him.
This made me prostrate myself before & I begged
w.<hi rend="superscript">th</hi> 1000 Fears forgiveness over all what passed.
He Mercy took me as I was, & I had from
thence a more happy Period. By all that, I could
not get rid of my Scrupulosity by the feelings of
my Misery & like a Child draw near to him
according to my Wish, <sic>therfore</sic>  <corr>therefore</corr> the Fear of myself
darkneth my happy Hours very often. In this
very Year, I & my Sister went to see the Con_
gregation at <placename>Hhuth</placename>, there I <sic>feeld</sic>  <corr>felt</corr> the very
Peace of God, and the Brethren & Sisters I
<sic>loockd</sic>  <corr>looked</corr> on as Children of God and had a great
respect towards them & I wishd incognito to
live in this Place. <date>1742</date>. We came to see <placename>Hhuth</placename> a
second time & there we <sic>detemind</sic>  <corr>determined</corr> to remove thither.
But by setting out for <placename>Herrnhuth</placename> some Accident
happened & we <sic>possponed</sic>  <corr>postponed</corr> our Journey. Hereby

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a dangerous Period for my poor Heart begun,
a false <unclear>Poeple</unclear> filled our Minds with so much
dangerous Expectations and Things against the
Congregation, that our Journey was quite <sic>dropt</sic>  <corr>dropped</corr>.
By all that our Saviour was so <sic>gratious</sic>  <corr>gracious</corr> to
beware that I did't sin against his Church, &
my <sic>Disire</sic>  <corr>Desire</corr> still remaining to <sic>spent</sic>  <corr>spend</corr> my Days under
this <unclear>Poeple</unclear>. I was busy in reading the <sic>Deciples</sic>  <corr>Disciples</corr>
<sic>Semons</sic>  <corr>Sermons</corr> deliverd at <placename>Berlin</placename> & begged our Saviour
very often that if I belonged to this Folks, 
he would himself find means to bring me <sic>thiter</sic>  <corr>thither</corr>.
As my Brother moved from <placename>Wetteravia</placename> to <placename>Bertholsdorf</placename>,
I & my Sister paid him a Visit there for some
Weeks, by that we saw what false Opinions
had for foundation. But for all that I <sic>knowd</sic>  <corr>knew</corr>
very well that some <sic>Poeple</sic>  <corr>People</corr> who came to the Con_
gregation have been sent by & by back again, this
made me terribly afraid to venture asking Leave
nevertheless I <sic>feeled</sic>  <corr>felt</corr> a Instinct in my Heart
that I belonged to this People. At last I & my
Sister desireth Leave to stay in <placename>Bertholsdorf</placename>
(only to be near <placename>Hhuth</placename> & to try if we belong
to the Congregation or not) We got Leave
& then the <date>9</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>th</date></hi><date> of Jan. 1747</date>. we arrived in
<placename>Bertholsdorf</placename> to stay there.
Exact a Month <sic>past</sic>  <corr>passed</corr> as the <date>9</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>th</date></hi><date> of Febr</date>. in a 
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