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forgot. I lernt now myself better to know, became a
more intime <sic>Conexion</sic>  <corr>Connection</corr> with our Saviour & he became
many <sic>Siner</sic>  <corr>Sinner</corr> - Fears before his pierced feet. the <date>14<hi rend="superscript">th</hi> May</date> I
was confirmed & the <date>11<hi rend="superscript">th</hi> June</date> the blessd day <sic>appeard</sic>  <corr>appeared</corr>
where I was to partake on his holy Body & Blood
here I lost myself & could nothing but weep.
the <date>20<hi rend="superscript">th</hi> of July</date> I receiv<hi rend="superscript">d</hi> the blessing into the Single
Sisters Choir & I gave him Heart & Hands to become
his true Soul. Soon after I & four Sisters more
went from here towards <placename>Herrnhuth</placename> & arrived the <date>8</date><hi rend="superscript"><date>th</date></hi><date>
of August</date>, where I had the Pleasure to live into the
Choir-House. Here I enjoyd his happy Nearness as a
poor Sinner, but weep <sic>dayly</sic>  <corr>daily</corr> for Want & <sic>Insuffiency</sic>  <corr>Insufficiency</corr>.
His Grace & Mercy is my only Holdfast, without, I easily
could <add>be</add> come inshared again. My only Desire is to live
as his Property to the Joy of his Heart, & that his holy
<sic>Corps</sic>  <corr>Corpse</corr> & Blood may irradicate all what's unJesuslicke in
my Soul & Body. So far She herself.
However [illegible deletion] unsettled <add>her</add> State of Mind, She was for
all that Sincere & openhearted. Anno <date>1760</date>. Our blessed
Disciple spoke her & from this Time our Saviour settled
her Mind & brought <add>her</add> to a sure foundation.
She has been for a Time <sic>excomunicated</sic>  <corr>excommunicated </corr>from the
holy Sacrament & in this <sic>Intervall</sic>  <corr>Interval</corr> the holy Ghost
had his blessed Work in her & she became solid &
                                                                        certain.



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He certain. Her <sic>Happyness</sic>  <corr>Happiess</corr> became more consistent
& She <sic>lernt</sic>  <corr>learned </corr>to know by all her <sic>Insuficiency</sic>  <corr>Insufficiency</corr> &
Sinfulness to keep <sic>closse</sic>  <corr>close</corr> to our Saviour & on
his meritorious Atonement. Hereby She found
herself glad, servitable & in Conversation lovely.
It was a Pleasure to her to serve one of her
Sisters & her <sic>dayly</sic>  <corr>daily</corr> Work in Washing She did w<hi rend="superscript">th</hi>
all possible Care & diligence. In the last Days
of <date>April</date> She was taken sick on a sudden but 
resisted as much as possible, because of her <unclear>Choci</unclear>-
Feast drawing so near. But a vehement Fever
forced her that She willingly the <date>1<hi rend="superscript">st</hi> of May</date>
entered the Sixth Room. On her Feastday
was She very happy in her Room & was glad 
to celebrate her approaching <sic>Birthsday</sic>  <corr>Birthday</corr> by this op-
portunitity in this so <unclear>Hill</unclear> & happy Place.
The Watch Word of her Birthday was: <hi rend="underline">Er riss muh
heraus denn er halte Sust zie mir. Was muss
Jesus an mir trüben Herzen lieben?</hi> This was
extraordinary pleasing & comfortable to her.
<sic>Privatly</sic>  <corr>Privately</corr> She hoped if our Saviour by means of
her Sickness would't take <add>her</add> in his eternal Safety,
but this She believed was to great a Luck for
her. By all her Smart She was <sic>allways</sic>  <corr>always</corr> Silent,
of good <sic>Chear</sic>  <corr>Cheer</corr> & very lovely & thankful to her 
Waiter. The 8th as She expected her Portion by
the holy Sacrament, She <sic>seyhd</sic>  <corr>said</corr> : A! When this
would be be the last & when I to Day were so
                                                              happy