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took place in him, so that his Soul recd a Hurt at this
Time which was never rightly cured again till a little
while before his Departure.
After he set up Business for himself, it obliged him
to make some Journeys to London, where Temptations
were renewed to draw him altogether into the World, and
altho' the Staff of Corruption & strong Tendencies these to
lay in him; yet he felt such Strong Convictions, that he
never could come to a Resolution to go into the World;
yet this divided Heart & continual Struggle betwist our
Savr & the World caused him a heavy & truly unhappy life,
that one could not see and speak with him without being
moved with Compassion. At Times he was much concern'd
about his unhappy State of Heart & wish'd our Savr
might attain his aim with him; he also was sometimes
very sensibly Struck with the strong Proofs he had of our
Savrs Faithfulness to him & by seeing how He kept his Hand
over Him. This had the Effect upon him that he once in
a particular Manner pray'd our Savr: if He saw no other
way of obtaining his Aim with him, to do it by giving him
a sickly Habit of Body, rather than suffer him to go into
the World, & he has often considered our Savrs Dealings with
him as an answer to this Prayer. t
t about half a year ago, as he was going toLeeds? & had still thoughts of pursuing a Worldly Scheme, tho'
with much uneasiness of mind & having pray'd as above he prop'd? & looked back for his company when
he got a Vomiting of blood which was the beginning of his last Sickness,
About 2 month;s ago it was observed that his tender
and weakly Constitution, turned into a Consumption &
he declined very fast. He was frequently visited by
many Brn, for he was generally beloved & when it drew
nearer his End; that he himself begun to think, he
would soon go home, he spoke with great Concern, to
some of the Labourers whom he had most Confidence
in & had been best acquainted with, and Lamented
that he ahd spend much of his Time so poorly with Rea-
soning, Reading unprofitable Book's neglecting the
meetings & other Privileges of the Congregation, he
also said: that he never had experienced the true grace
in the Blood & merits of Christ as a poor our Saviour. Sinner.
This brought him into such Distress, that he thought
he 3? would be lost, two Nights before his Departure
a ryd being when he was yet pretty Strong, he wept & pray'd all
the Night thro', and got when he also got Comfort from our
Savr. From that Time, his Fear was gone & he longed
to go to our Savr which was on the 6th of Feby, the same
Evening he sat up a long while & conversed with 2 Brn
in a bandlike Way in the heartiest & very agreeable
manner. He also kepy a very openhearted Band with
a Labourer 2 days before. He himself thought
he should continue about 3 Weeks longer; but the