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" Having been with her some Years I returned and soon
" after went to live at Hallifax. Being now [When I was] 25
" years old I got a fresh Call from my dear Lord, I
" saw my sad wretched and dismal State, which I
" was in by nature, with more conviction and distress.
" I had no rest in my Soul by reason of my Sins. They
" increased and the depravity of nature grew
" stronger & stronger. I made one promise after the
" other, took one resolution after the other to leave off doing
" Evil and to mend my manner of Life, but all to no
" purpose. My good will came to nought. Alas! I had no
" power in myself, Nature ruled, Sin was my Master,
" and I was a perfect Slave.
" In my 27th Year I changed my condition & was married
" to my husband Crispin Rothera. I hoped thereby to be
" delivered out of dangers, and to become more religious
" But this availed nothing neither, I was conscious that I
" was not in a State of heart that could please God. My
" poor Soul had no rest. I often knew not what to do for
" trouble of mind and Anxiety of heart. Certainly, thought
" I, there is no rest and Comfort to be found in any state
" whatsoever, that I can see into, as yet. O thought I,
" what a dismal condemned Situation am I in, having
" no rest in my heart by day or night. I wen con-
" stantly to Church, and Prayers, read religious books &
" did all I could, but remained the same, as I was.
" At Length I got to hear, that a new Preacher, One
" Mr Ingham, was to come to Hallifax & preach in
" the Church. Him I went to hear, his preaching confir-
" med me in my thoughts, that I was in a lost and un-
" done Condition, which he set forth as I found it in
" my own heart. I went home full of uneasiness of mind
" and condemned in heart, retired into a place by myself
fell