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Mother happily home, which was a great trial to me.
for we had liv'd very agreeably together.
I wrote to Sr Clagget desiring to think of me. for tho I had
many offers from friends & relations, yet I cou'd not think
of settling in the world having no liberty in my heart but
wanted to live amongst the Sisters. Soon after I had leave
to come & live at Oxhays were where I was tenderly cared for
by the sisters. tho it was sometime before I knew how it
wou'd go with me finding it very difficult to leave my
relations and the pleasing things of the world as they
then appear'd to me; but the Brn & Srs had patience
with me, & our Savior who is ever faithful, often made it clear
to me that if I did not abide with his people, I shou'd be
a miserable creature, this was indeed a school for my heart.
for not having learn'd to depend on our savior in all circum-
stances, I came into many byways, which affected me so that
it impair'd my health for some time. I did not tell ^it my labou=
ress, fearing lest I shou'd be sent away. & that I cou'd not
bear, as I lov'd the Choir House as my life.
In the year 1756 I was seiz'd with a nervous fever & was
brought so weak thereby, that I expected & look'd for nothing
else but my dissolution. This sickness prov'd the means
of our Savior Showing me quite clearly, where I was still
wanting. & the em^ptiness of things, that had hither to been
an anoyance to me in my course. & by the close connections
I enjoy'd with him at that time. my former heaviness was
removed. I saw & understood many things betwixt my Savior
and my own heart, in quite a different light. --
About this time our late Sister writes in a letter to a friend
the following. "I can now say with Jacob I am not worthy
of the least of thy mercies and^ as the prodigal. I am not worthy
to be called thy son. and^ as the Rublican? Lord be merciful to
me a sinner. and as Paul, of Sinners I am chief. and now
I humbly beg that the Lord will assist me by this spirit;
that I may also ^be able to say with David. It is my meat & my drink