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with such a peculiar feeling & that most Lovely
form with all His wounds & bruises, stood before me,
Now it was quite Clear to me, what had attacked my
Heart & drawn me impreceptably thro' my Childrens
years, Thus in His dear nearness I went happily on
And in My 14 year, I was taken into the Gr Girls
Choir,' which was a grace & blessing to me; But in some
small time after I came into doubting over my self
Whether I Stood in a right connection with our Savr
for I became quite Miserable, all at once, & feeling my
Corrupted Nature, made me disspair of Our Savr Ever
havering ought to do with me again, Thus I went on
believeing ev'ry body happier then myself, frequently
I beg'd & pray'd my dearest Savr to forgive me all the wretched
=ness & Sin which I felt in me, & make me once again
is happy & his Cherefull Child, at Times I felt some comfort
but then again it was with Drawn, yet many a Time
Those words was closely impressd on my mind, Thou
Shall be mine not withstanding my unbeleive
prevaild, & this disponding Situation, I kept much too
myself, at Last I resolved to Speak about it to my
Laboures, who told me just such poor Creatures our Savr
wanted who cou'd not help themselves, so that His Grace alone
might be the only remidy for their happiness, --
This was such a Comfort to my Heart as words cannot
Express
yet I found my unbeleive remaining with Me
& made me doubtfull over evry comfort--
Being Once in the preaching I heard the Sin of
unbeleive particularly Expleind, & that all our missery
was, the Effects of that great Sin: Here it was, as if
Something Spoak loudly in my Ear, & told me, That very
Sin keeps Thee from being happy; I Directly beleived it
to be true, & found my Heart was opening towards our
Savr, Instantly I begd & pray'd that he wou'd take a
way my unbeleive, & give me a full assurance of his
rich forgiveness, here my dearest Savr vouch safe to grant
The poor petitions of a destressed Heart, feeling what
Smart & pain I,d cost Him, bowed me in the very dust, I can
never Express how this Sight & feeling of my beloved has him Mended me with abiding grace, Thro' the future
Handed has been
moments of my Life? Thus I spent my time in the Gr Girls
Choir, as his poor unworthy Child, relying on his merits
and forgiveness as his poor but favour'd sinner parting daily
to be more & more to His Hearts Joy, & familiarly conversation
with his dear & wounded person? I still live'd with my
parents till my 20 year with Longings in my heart to be
a Member of the congreg= in the year 57 I went to live
in the occonomie at Gomersal, to my great Joy & blessing
for my heart; this proved a necessary schooling for me, &
in the Same year May 4 I was taken into the Single
Sistrs Choir; The blessings of this festival Day will ever be
precious to me I laid myself before My Hearts best
Ferind